a tree

You know when you come across a song that you just can't get out of your head, or better yet a worship song that God keeps bringing you back to, to get it fully into your spirit? This past week I have has some pretty amazing times with my Jesus! The song that United Hillsong sings called "Hosanna" is that song for me, in this season. Every couple of days a different verse of the song seems to stick out to me! Today as I was driving into Mbabane (capital city), sitting at a robot (traffic light), I began to people watch. Thinking and wondering how people could get to a place of not taking care of themselves to the point of homelessness. At that moment the Lord brought a part of that song to mind: "Break my heart for what breaks yours, everything I am for your kingdoms cause . . .". I became completely overwhelmed with the Lord saying "I love them too you know".

I know that the Lord called me to Africa to make a difference, but I think the biggest difference he was calling me to was a closer walk with him, and he has used Africa to get me there, though I am still a work in progress!

I am reading through Psalms at the moment and Love Ps. 1:1-3
1 Blessed is the man
who does not walk in the counsel of the wicked
or stand in the way of sinners
or sit in the seat of mockers.

2 But his delight is in the law of the LORD,
and on his law he meditates day and night.

3 He is like a tree planted by streams of water,
which yields its fruit in season
and whose leaf does not wither.
Whatever he does prospers.

Love all of it, but meditating on God's word and then the visual of the tree planted by the water is amazing to me. As long as I stay in God's word and close to him he will never leave me. There are so many different season's of life! I remember just having Kylea and always being out of church due to feeding or diapers, etc. I felt so exhausted, my pastors wife Cheryl Jamison told me, "this is only a season, life if full of them". Simple, yet profound at least to me. Me or my "tree" may go through many seasons of life looking, sounding, feeling different with each one, yet knowing I am being "watered" is enough to keep me going til the next season weather enjoyable or not!

I so have a tendency to struggle with "the grass is greener on the other side" mentality. Honestly, I do have seasons where I long to be back in the states, back in my familiar culture, family, friends, church, shopping! Yet I have to continually remind myself to keep planted by the water, and see what season he has in store for me next.
just some of my thoughts lately!